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Health issues....again

Ok, so I'm kinda freaking out, like in a panic attack in the back of my head, randomly breaking down into tear, like of freaking out. Let me tell you why...

A little over a year ago, I woke up in severe pain, mostly to my joints. I needed up in the ER, and was ultimately admitted, not because of the pain, but because I has a WBC (white blood cell count) of 32 (normal is 5-10). I spent four days in the hospital, saw a rheumatologist, had a ton of blood work, saw an oncologist, had more blood work, transferred hospitals, and was ultimately given the shrugging of the shoulders and no diagnosis.

I've been feeling on and off achy for the last year with no known reason. Then...

For about the last 2 plus months I have been feeling increasingly "off". Now I'm a nurse, of I know that is an awful explanation, but it's the truth. I have just been feeling more and more run down. I'm exhausted ALL the time, and I mean all the time; I wake up from 10 hours of sleep and could roll over to take a nap. This is NOT like. I'm an insomniac for gosh sake! Plus, I have been feeling increasingly weak, I canard.y lift what I could 6 months ago. And I have lost about 20lbs in the last two months without lifting a finger. Then, about three weeks ago, I got extremely dizzy, like trip over my own feet dizzy; that was the final straw.

I called my doctor, who got me in on wed June 6. She stated she was concerned because if my previous history of having odd bloodwork. So she wanted to get some bloodwork done. Six vials were take on thurs along with a urine sample.

I called for the results on mon June 11. Ended up actually getting a call back on June 12. It was not so good. My blood work and urine were completely normal...except my WBC, which is still elevated, currently at 16. I have no infection, no fever. However, the fatigue, mailase, vertigo, and weakness continues. So, my doctors is extremely concerned and made an appointment for me to see an oncologist...again. She has once again threw the concern of cancer, specifically leukemia, at me.

I have an appointment on June 21, which is only a week from when they called. I see that as great, since it is usually much longer waiting period to see a specialist. And it's the same oncologist I saw in the hospital, which means he has my previous records.

So, as you can see...flipping the hell out! Everyone tells me don't think of worst case scenario...but I'm a nurse! It's what we do! We self diagnose, and we think what to do in the worst case scenario! So, I'm reading a shit ton of fanfiction to take my mind off all this shit, watching a shit ton of Netflix, and preying. I'm going out with friends, enjoying dinner and drinks, and venting when I can.

My mom has taken the day off from work and is going with me to the appointment in case we get some bad news. I know I may walk out without a definitive diagnosis, but I am hoping to have some answers soon. According to my doctors suspicions, I have had an elevated WBC for over a year and a half, which is never a good sign. We will just have to wait and see. Work gave me the day of the appointment off, and if I need to call out the next day, they said they would understand.

Thank God I have health insurance, supportive family, friends, and coworkers. As well as short term disability insurance! Lol. Just in case of the worst case scenario I shouldn't be thinking about, lol.

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eviltwin
Jun. 16th, 2012 12:04 pm (UTC)
I really hope you get the answers you need just so that you know and can start trying to get rid of whatever it is. Fingers crossed for you and all the best x
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